hey .. I'm kinda lazy to blog nowadays, thou hv loads of tings to share.Life seems to b swirling ard. My mind n body looks as if they dun belong together.I hv hd pple coming up to me n slapping me wif their words.. asking me to 'WAKE UP'!..hmm 2 many things crossing my hemisphere.Nil interaction seen.. 2nd yr coming to an end 2 weeks more to exams..
wat am i gona do man.. I wana excel.. But y ? y? y so many distraction. My dad warned me but y din i take his advice.. I feel that i am juz tying a cloth ard my eyes n walking across a pole 20 storeys high..wil i fall?? I dun know e answer for that as well.!.been hurt, verbally abused, cried so much til ther's hardly any tears left to shed!!!! I hv no more energy left to antagonize any1..

Hold my hand and I'll take you there, somehow, someday, somewhere."

'Sometimes I miss you so much, I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you so tight..!!!"

He doesnt want 2 forgive..nt wanting to comment hw many countless times I hv forgiven hm..He chose his ways n I dn wana do anything against.
When e day comes when he realized hw remorseful I felt abt 2dy I hope I aint far away..No one else is to b blamed Its all ME!! Understood n accepted..!! Feeling of hopelessness,sorrows overpowering me..'U pushed me a few steps n nw I feel as thou I hv moved far far away!!!..

E nw yr, many nw tings.,nw rules, friendship's on e rocks..partially sud blame myself.. I can nvr kp a bestie 4 life.. its always tat i fl very pressured when I m ard her, she is wonderful bt sometimes i juz wan u 2 kn i cnt b ther 24 hrs physically..Love life seems so different nw.. things r sailing very smooth.. n I am having a pleasant journey, seen alot of changes in hm.,
I seek for ur forgiveness 4 causing so much of hurt..I too changed myself 4 e better..
I sensed tat i develop sum deg of possessiveness over him.I tried my luck fooling ard wif him.. n when he did e same ting i felt very pissed.. Women wil always b Women..
I hate sharing my stuffs..Nw u realise wher I hv placed u..!!! Sch's tough.,bt coping wel enuff..
I wish things to get better btn me n 'k' juz wish...'sighs'.she sud stop talking abt her bf 4 e timebeing getting tired of old tales, n dn expect me 2 cl u all e time..I reali fl so blank when we run out of tings to talk,,!!!!Goto tel tis 'k' bt i do respect ur friendship...
In my own world............. i am dreaming away...........!!!!!!

hey happy New YeaR..!
spend the first day of my new yr slping thru.. went to c godpa.. Surprise no nagging.. haha
my mum cooked horrible food today.. vegetable soup wif steam fish..healthy food month.. arrr..
ok.. lemme tell ya hw i spend e end of 2006..
Me n 'k' were like cracking our heads tinking wher to go.. n then i decided hooters at clark quay..
my new yr ws actually planned wif 'sum1'.. bt he hd too many stuffs to look into so I hd 2 let him go..so where was i oh yea hooters.. we went ther.. ambience ws gd..,great peeps..loads of fun.
hmm.. Post meal we went to party nt even on our list actually.. bt hey once in awhile its ok..
'k' actually had sum misunderstanding with her by guy, n e fault ws nt even hers,.. its a love affair i din wanted to get myself involved too much.. if u jumped into it u goto face it..tats wat i alwaes told her.. bt seeing her dwn din lk any better,, so trying to cheer her up..boost her energy level ,appearing a lil 2 clowny,wel smetimes u gt 2 b flexible..
ok i mng to..hehe.. we did mng to countdown nt waiting in any queue .. glad tat 'k' enjoyed herself she juz came to me n hugged me so tite... wishing me happy new yr.. tears of happiness in her eyes.. I juz hd so much fun wif her.. smething to rem til my downfall...Love u loads gurlie...